I have always believed that chaos is thrown into your life for a very specific reason. To test you, build your character, make you think harder, or even to give you a new perspective. It's not always easy to see things that way, but I have to believe it's true.
I think about this a lot, mostly when I feel overwhelmed and I wonder why I'm stuck in (what sometimes feels like) a mess. When you are stuck in a place where it feels like you'll never go anywhere, you are there for a reason.
I hear this all the time: you are where you are because there is still more for you to learn.
As someone who wholeheartedly believes I will always have much more to learn, I still struggle when life gets crazy and it feels like I'm struggling. Life can be messy sometimes. It feels like chaos. It feels like you are going to break. But really, I like to think that it's that way because I'm on the right track. Things are on the verge of changing, right in the midst of the chaos of my life.
I have to believe this is all true, based upon everything I have experienced in my own life. In every moment I have known in the thick of utter chaos, things have always turned for the better afterwards. There's just something incredibly powerful about fighting through it all to come out on the other side with the experience to back it up. It's made me who I am.
I don't know what the future holds---and neither do you--but I have to believe the ugly parts are all part of the grand design. I've seen it in my own life and I know I am a better person for it.
So, embrace the ugly. Encourage the chaos into your life every step of the way. Allow yourself to be criticized, tested, and honed into something beautiful and strong. Hold firm to what you believe is right. Do the right thing, even when you are criticized for it. Treat people fairly. Trust carefully.
But more than anything, be willing to ride the waves as they crash onto the shore. It will all make sense someday--your path is all part of the plan.
As for me, I know the bad always has a way of leading to the good. I welcome the mess into my life, because I want it to make me a stronger person. I have seen it play out in my own life time and time again--and my prayer for you is that you can find the strength to see it, too.
"When you look back on your life, it looks as though it were a plot, but when you were into it, it was a mess: just one surprise after another. Then, later, you see it was perfect." - Schopenhauer