Friday, September 16, 2011
Dropping the Ball
Life is about juggling. Whoever you are, whatever you do---you have to juggle a series of balls in order to exist and function successfully in this world. We all do it, we all know what it's like and we would all agree that it is never an easy task.
However, what happens when you can't juggle anymore? You know, like when someone keeps throwing more balls into the mix and some of them are on fire? Can you still juggle?
I have never been good at juggling, personally. For whatever reason, this time of year is especially hectic. My husband is gone a lot with work and other commitments, our social commitments increase significantly and work becomes incredibly hectic. Most days, I come home feeling completely overwhelmed--and wondering if I am juggling as well as I could. I second guess myself a lot. Am I doing everything I should? Could I be working harder? Am I forgetting anything?
It hit me yesterday that I am forgetting something: I have dropped the friendship ball. I am not talking to, caring about or giving enough attention to the friendships that exist in my life. I didn't consciously drop that ball, but I saw it lying on the floor last night. Waiting for me to notice it.
I could think of plenty of excuses. Multiple reasons for why I can legitimately explain my absence. But I don't think any excuse is good enough--valid enough--to explain why I stopped trying. Something just had to give, and I gave it up without even noticing. For me, noticing that I'm not doing as much as I could is enough to inspire a change. It's not always an easy thing to do, but it is rewarding.
How do you juggle?